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Over the past few years I have had a hard time committing to things and by things I mean just about anything, for fear that I wouldn’t be able to deliver and would be considered a failure.  I know it’s the most ridiculous thing ever, well beside jelly beans for breakfast which honestly is not a bad idea.  Jelly beans and a long run might be just want the doctor ordered but I digress.   So back to the issue at hand, yes I used to be afraid to commit and for so long I didn’t understand why but now I do.  After my divorce I of course felt like some failure, like many people.  Now I could write up a whole posting on failures and give you my laundry list of failures or my actual laundry list, whichever is more interesting and funny.  If it was me I think I would pick the laundry list, I have two kids so that is a lot of laundry!  Again I digress…oh yeah failures so one of my biggest issues was committing.  Now I know what you’re thinking, “Danielle how can you have issues?”  I know I know very surprising but I have like 3 and this is one of them.  So I would not commit to anything for fear I couldn’t live up to the commitment.

Well I don’t know what happened late last year (Ok I know but again, that is another post) but I have gone commitment crazy!  I signed up for anything I could to prove to myself I could do whatever I set my mind to.  So I signed up for a marathon.  And I signed up for a master’s program.  And I signed up for an Ironman.  And I signed up for anything I could.  Well here I am a month into the year and what do you know I feel overwhelmed! Surprise surprise!! So I started to feel defeated every day.   I felt this way but everything was getting done AND I was remembering to brush my teeth!  I have got to say, “Good job Danielle-success!”

So why was I being so hard on myself?? Well I don’t think I could measure my successes.  So I created a progress report for myself to track all my successes through the day.  OH and in case you don’t remember I love Infomercials so I’m going to have my own mini- version of an infomercial right now!

• Do you feel tired and worn out from your day and not realize where all the time has gone?
• Do you feel unaccomplished and defeated by the world?
• Do you hear strange noises in the middle of night?

Sorry the last part is from Ghostbusters!  If you do I highly recommend getting yourself organized and quantifying what you actually accomplished during the day.  It feels amazing!! I have upgraded from lists and post-it notes to an actual spreadsheet with calculations and everything!  I highly recommend you do it to.  It helps me see my progress and even when I feel exhausted I can look at my spreadsheet and charts and see the actual growth.  Now I know this is not for everybody and I have actually been told I’m a little crazy so perhaps you shouldn’t take my advice but I think I’m brilliant!   Of course..so if you want to be brilliant to you should totally do it too.  If you want I will totally set you up with one!