Over the past few years I have had a hard time committing to things and by things I mean just about anything, for fear that I wouldn’t be able to deliver and would be considered a failure. I know it’s the most ridiculous thing ever, well beside jelly beans for breakfast which honestly is not a bad idea. Jelly beans and a long run might be just want the doctor ordered but I digress. So back to the issue at hand, yes I used to be afraid to commit and for so long I didn’t understand why but now I do. After my divorce I of course felt like some failure, like many people. Now I could write up a whole posting on failures and give you my laundry list of failures or my actual laundry list, whichever is more interesting and funny. If it was me I think I would pick the laundry list, I have two kids so that is a lot of laundry! Again I digress…oh yeah failures so one of my biggest issues was committing. Now I know what you’re thinking, “Danielle how can you have issues?” I know I know very surprising but I have like 3 and this is one of them. So I would not commit to anything for fear I couldn’t live up to the commitment.
Well I don’t know what happened late last year (Ok I know but again, that is another post) but I have gone commitment crazy! I signed up for anything I could to prove to myself I could do whatever I set my mind to. So I signed up for a marathon. And I signed up for a master’s program. And I signed up for an Ironman. And I signed up for anything I could. Well here I am a month into the year and what do you know I feel overwhelmed! Surprise surprise!! So I started to feel defeated every day. I felt this way but everything was getting done AND I was remembering to brush my teeth! I have got to say, “Good job Danielle-success!”
So why was I being so hard on myself?? Well I don’t think I could measure my successes. So I created a progress report for myself to track all my successes through the day. OH and in case you don’t remember I love Infomercials so I’m going to have my own mini- version of an infomercial right now!
- Do you feel tired and worn out from your day and not realize where all the time has gone?
- Do you feel unaccomplished and defeated by the world?
- Do you hear strange noises in the middle of night?
Sorry the last part is from Ghostbusters! If you do I highly recommend getting yourself organized and quantifying what you actually accomplished during the day. It feels amazing!! I have upgraded from lists and post-it notes to an actual spreadsheet with calculations and everything! I highly recommend you do it to. It helps me see my progress and even when I feel exhausted I can look at my spreadsheet and charts and see the actual growth. Now I know this is not for everybody and I have actually been told I’m a little crazy so perhaps you shouldn’t take my advice but I think I’m brilliant! Of course..so if you want to be brilliant to you should totally do it too. If you want I will totally set you up with one!
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